I hope everyone has a great new year. I would like to give my love to a great friend who took his own life only a year ago today. RIP Drew you are truely missed by many and loved by all.

Its been a minute since I was last on here. Since the last time I was on here I broke up with my ex he went to jail for an unrelated case. He had the woman he cheated on me with to call and ask me to come visit him and bail him out of jail. I came and visited him because I am just to nice to leave someone hanging. I stopped talking to him or visiting him when he asked me to do some ilegal things. I since then had bad luck in everything.



I can talk about it now that I am happy but I was rapped this last summer more than once and given chlamydia. I finally got up the nerve to tell my best friend whom had introduced us. He wanted to kill him. He then broke down crying after he spent hours looking for him. He blamed himself and wanted me to forgive him. It brought us so much closer.



Since then we had spent alot of time together. I met a man while I was out with a friend. We hit it off and exchanged numbers. He went home and I went to look for my friend whom was drunk and wanting to go home with some friends to keep the party going. She jumped in a vehicle that had a drunk driving so I decited to walk home. While walking i got a call from the man I had met earlier he was wondering if I would like to go on a date with him and I told him yes. He then asked how my night was going I let him know I was walking him and he got in his car and drove to get me.( He was on the other side of town.) It was nice to have a guy treat me like a lady and not some chick he wants to lay.



Well long story short its been 6 months I he has been deployed to afganistan til october. The only problem with that is is that my best friend has decited to tell me a week ago he's in love with me and he wants to spend his life with me. Its hard for me to do but I told him that we could only be friends because I cant do anything to and wont do anything till my boyfriend comes back. He told me he would wait forever. He respects my wishes and tries his best not to say or do anything to change that. But my boyfriend doesnt like him so I feel like im cheating by not telling my boyfriend hes still in my life. we had stopped talking for a month or so. So I didnt think I would have to choose between them because I love both of them and yes I am in love with my best friend but I could never hurt someone I am with for my own benfit.



Now it is the end of the year and I have both of them stealing my heart. I wouldnt be able to choose who will have it but till then my best friend will only be my best friend and my boyfriend will be my boyfriend.



Its okay if you guys think im strange I just dont have time to write all the other things that have happened to lead up to all of this. There is so much that you all would be on pins and neddles trying to figure out who I go for. lol



thanks for listening---reading.

I had so much fun at the slush cup this year. I dressed as the big bad wolf dressed as granny. I tried to uplaod the pics from the trip but this site doesnt like my pics for some reason. I did the IDIOT SWIM ACROSS lol it was soooo cold jumping in the ice water and swimming to the other end. I ended up getting kicked by some kid while attempting to swim aross lol I made it to the end and got my free towel. Didnt really work out for me though the towel was to small haha. I had to take my costume off cause it was sticking to me like crazy.  Next year I will actually ski down the mountian and across the slush pond. After getting my towel I went to go dry off and change turned out there was no changing area for swimmers so in front of about 400 people I had to change my clothes. dont worry I left my bathingsuit on. kids and all. I walked around with wet clothes for 2 hours before getting back to the hotel. I think I might have amonia now. Guess thats why you have to sign the  waiver before doing anything. All in all it was a good weekend and a great trip cant wait till next year. hope to see some of you there.

I have enjoyed today its been calm and relaxing. I walked through a few parking lots today putting flyers on vehicles. I find it funny cuz I have always hated those people who go around doing that. I think its kinda annoying but it was actually really fun to just walk up to different vehicles and drop a flyer on the shield. Then having those who are just getting there or just leaving asking for them was pretty cool. I am kinda tired now lol I would say its because I didnt go to sleep till 8 this morning then got back up at 10 to do the flyers.

 

I have been thinking about how to go about getting a better job than the two I have now. I was thinking about just walking into a hosptal and just start working on someone till the staff realized i dont work there. lol that would be funny but no I am doing it the old fashioned way going from building to building putting in my applications.

 

well till next time

I guess my life isnt as exciting as most. I try to keep things interesting but it always ends the same. I broke up with my so called boyfriend tonight after he took my truck to get some money out the atm and didnt come back for 6 hours. His excuess he was taking a friend around to do somethings an they had but 100 in my gas tank. well dropping my truck off at 430 this morning and texting me that the keys are in the ignition and to come see me in the morning was bad enough I went and checked the gas gage I am way pass the E line. thanks a bunch hun for leaving me on empty and knowing that I am broke too yea that really pissed me off.

 

On the bright side of things the BBQ today went really well the food must have been really good cuz the only thing left is 2 peices of chicken. lol thats out of hotdogs hamburgers potato salad beans ribs drum sticks chicken wings pies an greens. we ended the night with beer pong an taquila shots. =)

 

Not the best life but its mine